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2012-01-31T09:29:00.007+08:00

Whatever it matters now.

January is coming to the end now! time flies~

Lunar New Year will be ending shortly soon, and its make me feels bored every year as routines on how are we going to spend the Cny period continuously each year~

But still, no matter what life still have to goes on & on.

Hopefully the last day of January will leave me a memorable ones.

Recently found back my primary school mates & friends, reminiscing back on the childhood times that we all had gone through making feel of going back to time.

Everyone had changed. It's amazing that we are able to see what we are now after 10years later.

So glad to find them back! feel so united suddenly for the whole batch of mine.

Awesome times i should says. ^^

turning twenty-two years old this year, makes me feel so old now.

Looking back after i've dropped out of poly till now, how much time have i been wasted?

Nevertheless, im happy for myself too!

Because im aiming for a dream that will be fulfil in another 5 years time most probably.

I understand in life, whatever we dream for, go for it !

Never gives up no matter what.

And Yes, and im flying to Bangkok soon.

I still remember years before, i went to thailand once but not Bangkok.

Dont know which part of Thailand, all i could remember is the "ah gua theatre" where we can seated down and watched them performed.

Still, i believe that, no matter which part of Thailand, there'll be lots of ah gua.

Shall experience the first trip to Bangkok in my whole entire life soon.

Gonna get lots of loots back then. Hehehe :D

Goodbye Singapore in advance! Shall update my blog again after I'm back from Bangkok. :D

shall get back to my stuffs now. ^^

2012-01-21T16:22:00.002+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !

Chinese new year is just 2 days away.
yet, i dont feel the atmosphere is here.

Perhaps, i dont have the intention of celebrating.

2012-01-21T16:20:00.001+08:00

Life is like a bicycle.
To stay in balance, you gotta keep peddling.

2012-01-01T02:50:00.004+08:00

Goodbye 2011

Bidding goodbye to 2011, and welcomes 2012.
Well, what can i say? To me I felt that 2011 is one of the worst year ever. So much of the downfall and unhappiness that I have gone through in 2011.
But along the way, there are people that are drifted with. Some have left a footprint in my life and walk away, some stayed.
Still, i thank them for making it part of my life.
It wasnt a good year thou, but of cause I have learnt alot from it.
Looking at different perspective which eventually makes me to see things differently.
Learning on how to pick myself up no matter what the obstacles is, which makes me stronger and stronger each time.
Wasnt a year for me to look back of the unhappiness, but to look forward for the future.

So lets look forward for a better year ahead!
Hopefully, this new year will be a fruitful one. I truly believe hard work paids off~
Shall live my life to the fullest, and have a smooth sailing year ahead.

2012 Resolutions:

1) My top resolution will be passing the 4 upcoming Finance papers.
2) Get a stable job and earn as much money as possible.
3) Travel around the world.
4) Happiness for peoples around me.
5) Good health for family & friends.
6) Attending guitar lesson with twiny.
7) Last but not least, to smile always :D

Hopefully this 2012 Resolutions will be smooth sailing and works out well.
So lets pray, and hope for the better.

HUAT AHHHHHHHHHH~ !!!

2011-12-26T00:13:00.002+08:00

Expect the unexpected!

Yes, life is short, live your life to the fullest.
this sentence had been always in my mind all these years, perhaps its the reason that always keep me fighting for the unexpected.
Still, im thankful for what I have in life.

Looking at the long run of my life, i hope things will be smoothly for me for the upcoming years.
I know all these is not merely by words, but to proven by action.

So meantime, im back to working in Converse as Part time.
at least i'm more carefree and having a flexible timing for myself.

Next target in life : to have a stable income, and travel around the world.

P/s: i know this post is kind of random.

2011-12-15T00:45:00.003+08:00

Rantsssssssss~ !

Seriously why the fuck is life being so fuckup nowadays?
I feel like ranting, but somehow ... I find it useless to rant over here.
More over in twitter. HA! Keep it to myself then.
Nothing will change, but still eventually we'll got over it after sometime.

2011-12-05T01:36:00.003+08:00

Another new week !

Holyshit! im down on flu.
Caught in the rain for the past few days. Must be the cause of it that im having flu.
Nice and cooling weather, and yet im perspiring away now. *sigh !
Hopefully fever wont comes for me. *pray hard.

Thanks man! One last day for me to enjoy and yet being so unwell now. ):

Yet another week, hopefully its doesnt fail to make my day.
Most probably going Jb with daddy & sister, which im so reluctant to go actually.
with added of my current condition.
80% that i will be dragged to go tomorrow. ):
H-O-W ?!?!

And i should jolly well kick off the habit of sleeping late and waking up late now.
Die die also must kick away this habit, if not i will be super duper tired!

And, shall continue my jogging session soon.
real soon.

Off to bed! Goodnights. :D

2011-11-28T02:42:00.002+08:00

Random.

Without noticing, the previous updates took me 1hr t finish posting.
But nevertheless, wouldnt know when will i be update my blog.
Most probably, 1 week? 2 weeks? or even 1 month?
Shall see then. :D

Nothing special, yet another week that im enjoying.
But these carefree life will be over soon, real soon.

Shall head t my bigbig cosy bed now with the company of my 2 babies.
Goodnight, Earthlings!

2011-11-28T01:06:00.017+08:00

21st Birthday party @ Aranda Country Club
on 13 November 2011.

Pardon me for the late updates for the birthday celebration due to my busy-ness.
And finally, i had some time t settle down t upload these photos.
Shall let the pictures do the talking. Enjoy! :D

Big thanks to the Phua family that help out, forking out money t sponsor me with goodies, dessert, salads & fruits. Helping me out for the things that i have lack of. Thank you so much !

Thankyou, aiai ! For helping me with my birthday celebration beforehand, burning the midnight oil just t get the things done and going everywhere across the singapore almost everyday for the preparation of the party. Love you, more and more each day!

Thankyou, goofy! For being the first person t reach, and helping me t put up the banner before the party starts. Thankyou so much for being sucha awesome goofy, to always stand by me and being my listening ear without fail. Love you, goofy!

Thankyou Twiny, for helping me t design a lovely banner for me. Despite having busy schedule, you still willing t help me in it. Thank you so much! It's so hard t came across a good pals like you to even know you during the roadshow, thou most peoples will ends up being a hi-bye friends. But still, I'm glad we become the good pals till now. Love you, twiny!

Thankyou bestf for making a trip down t the party. Time flies, we had knew each other for 5 years already. And still, we are still as close as before.

My not-very cheap cake that i order from e-creative. Disspointment with the cakes which makes my mood totally turns off. Initially, the cake was delivered t me in a smashed condition. Thou they had quickly get it change for a second one, but still wasnt satisfied in it. And because of the icing had slowly sink, cake cutting had t be push forward. *sigh!

Happygirl that earns 2 kisses from my beloved goofy & aiai ! HOHOHOHO!

Actually i cut down writting a big lots of text, because i rushing off to my dreamland soon.
Quite a successful party thou, quite alot of my friends turns down last minutes & some cranky stuffs that happened. But still im glad that its still a memorable ones.
Thankyou everyone for making a trip down despite on the heavy rains on that day & my party which falls on Sunday. Thankyou everyone ! :D

Last but not least, I'm offically 21st !

2011-11-24T02:14:00.002+08:00

Yay ! change of blogskin yet again, due to some stupid mindset I've.
(Y)(Y)(Y)

Shall continue to update my blog soon,
real soon. :D :D :D

2011-11-09T01:54:00.001+08:00

5 more days to my 21st birthday celebration.
yet, i dont feel excited at all. Dont know why either.
Hopefully the celebration turns out smoothly, perhaps. :D

2011-11-01T01:25:00.004+08:00

Aimlessly.

As time goes by, i start to notice that i have been mia-ing already.
not because im too busy to update but, too lazy to even give a damn on updating.
Too many things had happened, which i dont really wish to elaborate or share much about it.
Would rather prefer to keep the problems all to myself than sharing. Yes, i admit. I'm rather stubborn at times.
But because of all the failures & disappointment that i have gone through, i pick myself up and pretend to be strong. Somehow, i think that pretending and running away from all the problems will make me even stronger. But still, i know im avoiding.
Because i know, nobody knows me better than myself.

okay, enough of all the saddening stuffs.

So, yet another week of doing nothing which leads everything to aimlessly.
im trying, trying very to look for a job now. ):
But still, i know im still slacking my life away. tsk ! should really be serious this time round.

And hopefully 2011 will be over sooooooooon.
too many of 21st birthday party to attend, will make me even poorer especially year end with added, im not working. ):
Not only that, my 21st party is just 13days away from now.
which means that cash flowing out is even more heavier. ahhhhh~
But still, shall look forward for my 21st ! hehe. ^^

Attended Twiny advanced 21st party last saturday at Singapore Recreation Club.
Went there alone, and i thought i will be soooooo damn bored over there as i know none of her friends. But still, twiny keeps me accompany whenever she's free.
Not only that, she even introduce some of her friends to me, and its like when twiny is away entertaining others, her friends will take turn to chit chat with me.
How sweet right? :D :D :D

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY, TWINY !

2011-10-13T01:53:00.003+08:00

Looking forward.

Another 28hrs more to go for short getaway trip.
Yayyyy! Plus, going with my lovelove txy! hell looking forward.
omgomgomg madnessssssss! I cant wait.

Shall make a trip down to Republic Polytechnic tomorrow.
*As promised!
but actually i went down have motive one, and might as well go down find my friends also.
one stone hit two birds right?
I know im becoming cleverer now. *As if! :X

Super self-entertaining myself at this hour.
NAISEEEEEE~

Shall go get myself some sleep now.
If not there again, unable to drag myself off the bed again. Tsk!

Goodnights peopleeeeeeeeeee (:

2011-10-08T01:20:00.004+08:00

Unpredicable.

Countless months i have not been working already.
had been sleeping for more than 12hours a day.
Everything seem so relaxing for been rotting at home but no, it seem like i had tired of being rotting at home.
In life, human will never be satisfied. Im pretty sure of that, and im one of the example.

I tends to complaint when im in school of being tired of schooling.
And when im resting at home everyday, i tends to complaint that i kinda miss school.

So now what? I went to search for a full time job.
Went down for an interview today but ended up rejecting this offer.

Shall look for more then.
Kind of dont understand those company at all. It seem to them that all jobless peoples are super free. Can call us down for interview with so little salary.
Seriously like wtf ? wasting my time making trip down.
*sigh!

2011-10-05T01:00:00.004+08:00

Bid goodbye.

Goodbye Republic Polytechnic,
Goodbye friends,
Goodbye presentation,
Goodbye new friends,
I'm officially withdraw from school.

will kinda miss my friends in school.
& all the best for 1st day of school tomorrow. (:

Back to where am I.
Everything back to square one, where im not studying nor working.

Time for job hunting real sooooooon.
:D

P/S: somehow, i still miss school life. ):

2011-09-30T04:42:00.003+08:00

Ohh, so convincing.

Check my class roster few days ago, fortunate that there's 2 friends of mine in the same class as me.
but no, im not staying for the next semester anymore.
I should learn not to get influence by friends this time round.

So head down to republic poly this afternoon with my sis & yiyi.
to settle with my withdrawal from schoool & blahblahbah. Everything done, and left with the modue chair to approve it.
Saw my faci earlier on, she advice me not to give up and continue my study.
everything comes out from her mouth sounds so convincing.
to be frank, she makes sense in her point of view. And i really did shaken by her words, just a little bit. I have my own point of views too, but who will really understand me from what exactly do i want?
Shall make a trip down again to settle everything before school starts.
P/s: Morale of the story, everyone sounds right & convincing. Dont you think so?

How many countless weeks i have not been working already?
Four ? Five ? Seriously i lost count of it.
It seems like time passes in a blink, never realizing i've not been working for so long.
Ha! Kinda get use in my current lifestyle now.

And there it goes, money drying up soon.
What's next? So many of my friends 21st coming next. Niceeeeeee~
Shall think of where to dig for more money already. tsk!

Any suggestion on where can i dig? :X

5.01am now. Hopefully i'm able to wake up early to make my trip down to company.
Dont want to be like last week, wanted to go down.
But ended up woke up late & nua-ing the whole day. :X :X :X

I know i know. I start to be super lazy now.

Ohhhhhhhhh~ time for bed, and i will try to adjust my body clock next time.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
Goodnight peopleeeeeeees. :D

2011-09-21T03:36:00.003+08:00

Hi twinyPeijun,

Time passes so fast without knowing, it gona be our 1 year since we first met.
Still remembering how we first met, how we started chatting, how we started hanging out together.
Oh, and the first time you bake cookies & cheese cake.
the sticky note is still with me, pasting in my cupboard. :D
without fail, we will still give each other advices and opinion.
So glad that i had know you.

11 months plus & still counting on.

Yours sincerely,
TwinyMeijun (:

2011-09-21T00:32:00.004+08:00

So far so good.

Previously i already done blogging my long entry, but i dont know why it dont seem to publish
and what next, everything that i blog is gone.
here i'm, reblogging my entry again. Tsk!

1st- went to vivo to look to my lovely txy.
2nd- fried rice at hawker centre
3rd- head to 313 somerset to meet my twiny.
4th- Dinner at marche , 313
5th- Order potato with sour cream, mushroom wrap, chocolate ice cream, strawberry crumple pie
6th- walk over to takashimaya for Royce chocolate
7th- head over to plaza singapura to look for kenneth.
8th- Home sweet home. :D

thats all for today. a sinful day, a simple life. :D
and i can see my weight is increasing now. tsk!

As you can see, i'm leading my life in a carefree yet enjoyable.
enjoyable in a sense that, i have not been working for 3 weeks already.
and yesssss, its 3 freaking weeks already and still counting on.
had been nua-ing myself all day long, and i starts to love my lifestyle now.
feel like nua-ing for another 1 month plus before i really prepare myself for work.
perhaps, after my bintam and genting trips next month.
by then, hopefully i will have the mood to work. :/
thou, i have the intention of nua-ing myself till next year july, but i know it's so impossible.
):

P/s: If you don't know what's the meaning of nua, it's actually a dialect in hokkien meaning, lazing around. :D

Not only nua-ing myself, i try to make my life more enjoyable.
and initaially i have a intention of baking cookie monster cupcakes and somehow..
it fails ~ therefore, as you can from the below picture, cookie monster becomes ugly monster. :/
but bendan says it taste not bad, thou i know it doesnt look appealing at all.

Secondly, i tried on making eclairs chocolate but still it fails
it seem like something goes wrong for the chocolate on the top coating & the flour.
everything seems to fail on me. Tsk !

Nevermind, shall try out to do again soon. ^^

Finally done my entry.
Shall catch up my taiwan drama now before i turn in.
Hopefully tomorrow i'm able to wake up early to make a trip to the Vellas. :X
if not, i doubt i will be so hardworking going over.

So bye, Earthlings~

2011-09-12T04:21:00.003+08:00

Just had my blogskin change.
simple yet plain. :D

it's 4.21am now
I'm like a free bird currently.
No school nor work tomorrow.
Coooooool shit!

And im still not intending t turn in now.
.____________________.

2011-09-12T01:28:00.002+08:00

Yet another week.

Feeling so tiring this week. Didnt really sleep much.
im obviously not working this week but having fun.
Driving around in singapore for 4days is the coolest part.
All thanks to yiyi, giving me this chance. *Love her max. :D :D :D
this tiring week is kinda worth it.
you know you know, you got the fun and you got to enjoy it.

Having another long break this time round.
Didnt put any shift next week also, which means im super duper enjoying my life now. :X
If these kind of enjoying mood still remains, i doubt i'll have the mood to work.
And then here comes my doom day. ):

And yes, for a reason i rejected working in that higher pay job.
somehow it doesnt suits me.

So working for the sake of money or Enjoy in working?
I will chose both.

Whats more?
alot of undone stuffs to be done, SERIOUSLY! ):

2011-09-06T01:53:00.002+08:00

Hello September.

Hellooooo September, please be nice for me this month. :D

Anyway, comex show had finally comes to an end which i can say my sales is totally very poor.

in a sense that i think selling printer is absolutely not my forte.

My salary for the comex show will be super low i can say but nevertheless, shall treat it as an experience. ):

Shall go back on selling lappy next time round instead, if im able to work for the next show. :D

Anyways... I will be having a long holiday now.

had decided to quit my school already, and pursue my studies at somewhere else.

Yes, i gonna quitted. & im glad that i had tried.

Thou, i know people might says that somehow it will be wasted for me to come all the way from Nitec -> Higher Nitec then to polytechnic.

The route that i take might be long, but at least i prove to other that i tried studying for the 1st semester thou the course im studying is totally out of point to my interest.

Alright i know, i may be fickle minded at first but hopefully, i wouldnt regret for the decision i have made. (:

Having off for this entire week to replenish my rest.

seriously, i think that i will never get back my sleep no matter how long i have slept last night.

still feeling super tired & sleepy the next day i wakes. tsk!

Shall get more rest & enjoy myself for this week before i really start chiong to work.

and yes, i found another part time job which is much higher pay with the help of yiyi ! :D

still thinking should i continue working in sushi tei and takes up 2 jobs for the time being or, just quit sushi tei. *sigh~!

but, if i takes up 2 jobs will i ...... feeling half dead at the end of the day?

Who knows again, life is full of choices.

shall decide when the days had comes. #forever let fate decide.

but still its the money we are after for.

Shall work for more more more more moneyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

P/s: Upcoming Bintam & Genting trip, im coming for you. :D :D :D

2011-08-28T01:52:00.002+08:00

H o l i d a y!
5 weeks of holiday shall begins now.
WHOOOHOOOOOOOOOOO~

2011-08-21T02:16:00.003+08:00

Education not just by filling a pail of water.

Yes, to everyone perhaps education is not just by filling a pail of water, but to understand the problem itself.
I tried to memorize every details, and understanding it.
But it seem that the more i try to squeeze all the notes into my brain, its seem to be overflowing.
I'm really not a studying material. ):
Life is hard with examinations.

I'm tired!
tired of memorizing, tired of schooling, tired of examinations.

I need a long breakkkkkkk, but i know i have to tolerate till the end of my examinations.
Hwaiting, Meijun!
I'm sure im able to overcome it no matter what.

Hurray, it's time for bed!
And a better day tomorrow. :D :D :D

Dear holiday,
Please wait for me, i'm coming for you.

Yours sincerely.

2011-08-16T01:14:00.014+08:00

Last day of school.

Semester 1 finally comes to an end. everyone will be parted and went separated way.
Thou its just 4 months in this class, but i still find laughters and fun in it.
Goodbye, W35H. You'll be missed!

Right now, i shall now be bother to think of anything.
All i can think of is to focus my upcoming Understanding test which is just 7days away from now.
Afterwhich, i shall declared holiday~!

I feel so much looking forward to my upcoming holiday.

which i dont know why.

Just feel like trying all sorts of stuffs during my holiday and not let it wasted. :D

Nevertheless, earning money will still not be neglected of cause.

Last but not least, 13 August a great day to spend with.

Helping my yiyi to celebrate for her 21st.

Thou, the time might be short. But we still do have the fun staying over at the hotel.

Hope she really enjoy herself that night. *loves. :D

Thankyou, yiyi for letting me to have the opportunity to drive you around.

*Loved!

Anyway, Happy 21st Birthday! :D :D :D

2011-08-03T02:08:00.003+08:00

It's not the end.

Left with 8 days of school till the end of Semester 1.
time passes so fast, and there we go changing another class soon.
I still remember when i stepped into the school during the first week of school, how i wish it's the end of semester already.
now, it's the end of the semester soon and yet i dont feel like parting with my classmates. ):
Maybe it's time for bonding session with my classmates but, now yet again i've no motivtation for school. Alright i know, im on and off.
Shall skipped lesson on Wednesday & Thursday. Perhaps, Friday as well?
Not that i dont wish to go school, just that i feel so tired so tired.
And that's the reason im not going for lesson. :X

Ut 3 is 3 weeks away.
Shall give it the best shot and chiong ahhhh~
no time to be wasted already.

And now that, i hardly work for my part time.
Shall put everything aside, and start my revision.
Meanwhile, I feel so broke now and i have so many 21st babies coming up next.
Don't know will my money able to survive me throughout everyday.
hopefully it can.
Shall chiong to work perhaps during holiday. :D
And hopefully, i have the motivation to work.
Yes, for the sake of money. I hope i can.

Turning in soon. :D

Ending post with my lovely girls.

P/S: i feel so contented with my life now. so carefree so lively. Shall not let my past defeat me. (:

2011-07-29T00:08:00.002+08:00

Moving on.

Change my banner yet again, because i think i ought to change it sooner or later.

So finally, I'm moving on with life now.

I learnt that sometimes the things that you yearn for, will never be yours.

and thats apply to relationship as well actually.

Seriously i think that letting go is easier than holding on, so i think its better to let go now.

Perhaps, my thinking shall remains. Never patch up after the breaking up.

Because, the conflict will still be there afterall.

P/s: Don't live in the past, live for today and hope for tomorrow.

Nevertheless, i met up with wifey for dinner today!

like finally after 234567654321234565432 years of not meeting up.

Had our dinner @ xin wang hong kong cafe, and we chatted alot alot alot.

Ohyes, thanks wifey's mama for helping us pay for the meals.

felt so paiseh actually to let her pay. ):

More catching up session soon. :D :D

So nowadays, i felt so motivated to go school which i dont even know why actually.

Didnt late nor partial for these few weeks.

*Happy girl! i see improvement in myself too.

Oh, and Understanding test 3 is just round the corner.

I should buck up now, and start doing my revision already.

Goshhhh~ i cant bear to see myself flunking my paper again and again.

If this still goes on, i will see myself dropping out of the school. ):

Yes, i should buck up!

No more flunk papers, but flying colors.

Hopefully all the efforts i had done will not gone down to drain.

Jiayou, Meijun.

I know you can do it. Nothing can beat me down. :D

Lets hope for better future.

2011-07-18T00:52:00.000+08:00

2011-07-18T00:23:00.005+08:00

Down to earth.

Meanwhile while waiting for yiyi to finish her powerpoint slides, here i'm updating my post.
And she had been sleeping over at my house to keep me accompany. :D

So 3 weeks more to finish 1 semester of school.
But, somehow i feel i couldnt make it through year 2. Feel so demoralized in everything.
2011 to me, wasnt as successful as what i think. Perhaps, I should look forward for 2012.
Or what can i say to make myself through year 1 when all my module seem to be so badly done?
I really dont think i was fitted to go poly. didnt know why, just have this kind of feeling.
Feeling such a failure in me. ):

Drop this matter. I know i should try harder in order to achieve the things i want.
So yeah, life is such a fuckup i should say.
Just a little thoughts, will bring my entire mood down.

I'm seriously very tired in all these shits.
Wanting to stop everything, but just couldnt. Because things doesnt go on my ways!
Life sucks. Sometime i do wonder, why are we living for.
After so long of struggling, so long of trying and yet everything comes to an end.
Yes, i'm tired.

I defeat lose in everything.
Be it relationship or studies.

And i know im stupid enough to hold onto it.
I know after some time, things will comes to an end. Sooner or later.
No point clinging on the things which its doesnt belong to me.
It's just the matter of time. ):

I'm not trying to be emotional over here. Pardon me.
But like you see, things cant be control. I hate how my life is right now.
S-E-R-I-O-U-S-L-Y !
Life continues, no matter what. *Sigh!

2011-07-15T08:48:00.003+08:00

Fact just hurts a thousands times

I'm mad at myself, not you.
I'm mad at myself for being nice, being attached, making you my life,
depending on you, following you, wishing for you, dreaming of you,
thinking about you, forgiving you.
Most of all, for not liking you. Which i know i should but i cant.

2011-07-15T08:45:00.001+08:00

2011-07-11T00:46:00.001+08:00

Definition of "Sorry! "

No longer means a thing to me. It has lost it's meaning. It's simply a word people like to use as an excuses to keep doing something wrong over and over again. More than often people only say it to ease their own guilt, rather than feel bad for the pain and hurt they have caused to someone else. Save your breath next time you say sorry to someone because no matter how hard you try to explain why you're sorry, it's never enough. Actions, and only actions can show how truly sorry you are. There are too many empty apologies.

2011-06-27T22:38:00.000+08:00

2011-06-27T17:56:00.002+08:00

Life still goes on, and on.

Everyday routine in school is the same. brainstorming, presentation, and having my lunch.
Somehow, i feel so sick and tired of this daily routine
And i have the urge of quitting the school soon, but afraid of i might regretted after doing that.
But seriously, I feel tired of going school.
Perhaps, it's because of my age compared to other and attended 4years of ite.
And now, im sick of school life.
My school life indeed was long. 21years old now and had just started studying in Poly for the 1st year.
HA! whats more? Nothing wents well in school.
No matter how much i tried, everything will gone down to drain.
So why do i even bother to try? ):
I feel so negative and less motivated now. WHY?!?!?!?!
And Understanding test is just next week.
Seriously, why is Understanding test so fast. And it only 2 weeks difference from UT1 & UT2.
AHHHHHH! I hate RP system to the max man!

This week i need to enjoy!!
Because i'm starting my another part time job soon.
So my life will most probably be work & school.
Yes, I'm trying to bury myself with work. So that i can able to move on.
Putting the past aside now.
Focus everything which i think it might be important for me now. (:

P/S: Action speaks louder than words. Prove it, to prove me wrong this time round.

2011-06-26T23:27:00.002+08:00

Hurtful truths.

Somehow I miss the way how you used to sweet talk to me.

Somehow I miss you making the first move to text me.

Somehow I miss the old you.

Somehow I miss my simple life.

Somehow.......

2011-06-25T14:36:00.003+08:00

Never take anyone as granted!

"Never take anyone for granted because you never know when you might lose them. Appreciate everyone; let go of the little things because tomorrow is never promised, because you never know what might happen today. "

I had understand this, and now I'm trying very hard to let go everything now.

No point for me to pin too much hope for anything.

at the end of the day, I'm the one getting all the hurts and wasting my time.

Since my efforts is not appreciate, why am I still caring for you?

crying over you? Ha!

I was foolish enough, i know!

Anyway, it's confirm already.

starting my work at Gloria Jeans on the 4th July!

shall put everything aside, because things don't worth for me to think.

P/S: Think of it, i kind of missing beanie. But, everything is the past now.

All was left, shall be the memories in my life. *loves.

2011-06-25T01:28:00.004+08:00

Nothing last forever.

Is this the facts? Does everyone will agree with what i think?

I'm getting sick and tired of everything right now.

I dont know. I just feel i'm been such a failure actually.

whatever things I've done doesnt seem to be right. I wish to know the answer to myself too.

But, things dont go on my way.

Or should I let it be and follow the flow?

Finally meet up with my goofy earlier on today!

Dinner at Long John Silver, and caught "X-MEN first class"

H2h talk with goofy at Macdonald after the movie. At least I feel much better now.

Yes, more meet up soon most probably!

Anyway, i thought it through.

Perhaps, i should help her to manage the cafe at Gloria Jean as well.

Although the pay for it seems to be so much lesser, but maybe i should give it a try to give a helping hand.

So yeah, most probably starting on July?

Lets see how it goes then. :D

Last but not least, picture up.

2011-06-19T13:03:00.002+08:00

ALOHAAAAAAAA!

Yay! I think i should live happier instead of minding what others thinks of me.
So right now, no matter what it is. I will try be myself.
Thou, my smile had gone away for long. But i'm sure i'll be able to pick myself up.

Attend 1day of school last week, and i'll be back next week.
I hope i wouldnt have the partial mood to school again. :/

Contented for myself. I bought the things i wanted!
More to go, and my cash is drying up yet again.
4 weeks of not working already. And now I'm too lazy to get myself to work. ):
But no work, no money! I should be working hard now for the sake of money.
how? ): but i really dont have the mood to work. *sigh!

Whatever it is, i should follow the flow.

P/S: i feel like joining marathon again. :/ should i ?

2011-06-16T23:31:00.002+08:00

Drifted!

Yes, I've overcome it. I've overcome the fear in me.
Everything is back to normal now.
But everything is drifted away now. Maybe it's really true.
When you gain something, you will lose something eventually. Yes, so true i can said.
Take it as a lesson learnt!
What can i say? Dont hold on the past and it's time to move on.
the time wouldnt stop for me.
Get a life, meijun! :D

P/S: Goodbye beanie! ):

2011-06-12T20:57:00.002+08:00

Dear withlovemjdotblogspotdotcom,

I have met with some obstacles recently. And i feel that i was been such a failures towards everything now. Everything in my life changes, and everything is beyond my control.

I just hope everything could turns out well. But NO! the facts is there, no use running away from this reality.

why am I still running away, when i actually know the facts is there?

Why?!?!?! why didnt i have the courage to face everything.

Everything turns out sour now, which what i could not expect and beyond my control.

Words are left unsaid, fact remains.

Hopefully, i will be strong. Yes, i hope i will.

Because i know, every obstacles i face, will make me even stronger no matter what.

Deep fall indeed. *sigh!

Anyway, holiday coming to an end already, and now i dont feel like going school already.

holiday are short, and will never enough for me.

spent my 10days of holiday almost at home. How bored~

Seriously, i dont have the motivation for school already.

But i know, no matter what. Dont give up easily.

Jiayou, meijun! i believe you can do it.

2011-06-04T23:53:00.002+08:00

I seriously hate people who lie to me.

Especially the one i love.

Now everything changes from love to hatred!

2011-05-31T23:11:00.002+08:00

11:11

Will be stay with me, and never leave?

Seriously i miss the days when i spend everyday sms-ing you and calling you.

walking to school with you, having lunch/dinner with you everyday without fails.

but not anymore now. How sad!

everything is the past now, what was left was all memories.

peoples told me by wishing a wish at 11:11, your wish will come true.

Yes, 11: 11

I miss the memories you had left for me, and i wish everything will turn it back to reality.

But it seem like its beyond hope now.

I know, i cant pin too much hope on it.

Yeah. Life still goes on, no matter what.

2011-05-30T18:35:00.002+08:00

Back to trackkkkkkkkk.

Oh hellooooooooo~ i'm back to track now. :D

So while waiting for my sister to prepare for the dinner, meanwhile i do some updates on my blog.

Yeahh. Life was pretty alright now.

Maybe its best that we stay in this way.

So yeah, the Sundown marathon that i looking forward finally came.

Thou, i seem to be so reluctant of running when the time is closer.

But no choice, still have to drag myself for the race. Yes, determination! (:

Flag off at 10pm, but i was late due to the traffic jam.

In the end i have to get down the bus to walk for 30mins of distance. -.-

So i started my race at 11pm, then yes im proud that i've completed my 42km run.

Thou, i have completed my run, but i feel so weak for the whole day, and when i started to walk my face will turn pale. which i dont know why. ):

And this got to be my first and the last experience of running 42km.

Once is enough for me.

Now im suffering with pain and cramp all over. ):

ahhhhh~

I'm super hungry now!

Dinner will be done soooooooon. yay!

Shall update again.

2011-05-28T15:37:00.002+08:00

Bidding Goodbye.

And i think it'll be the best solution for me by bidding goodbye.

Goodbye reality, Goodbye peoples.

2011-05-28T01:29:00.000+08:00

BABY, I LOVE YOU <3 <3 <3

2011-05-26T00:46:00.004+08:00

错的人

Everything back to square one again. Yet again, not the right one.

And i don't feel like moving on without him. ):

But i know i ought to move on , no matter what. Time wouldnt stop for me.

The more i see him in school, the more heart aching i will feel.

Now I'm all alone for goodness sake.

Same routine, same route to school but all alone now.

No longer have him in my life now.

FML, seriously.

illness + rls

double attacks came to me now. How nice for me to take it now at this situation.

I will be breaking down soon. Sooner or later

Just the matter of time.

P/S: If that's the reason of where we stand now, let me tell you. 我不认输.

No matter what, i respect your decision.

Goodbye my love, and this will be my hardest goodbye. <3

2011-05-16T21:44:00.002+08:00

Routine

School had started quite a few weeks already.

And from the 2nd days of school till now, im still awaiting for my appeal result.

Thou, i think the letter send to republic poly will not have any reply afterall.

If there is, i might already get informed. why wait till now? Right?

Yeahhh. but who knows. there might be a miracle. But i know i wont put too much hope on it.

So i think i will find a alternative choice if my appeal is unsuccessful, and that will be continuing my studies.

time passes quite fast in school. Just in a blink, and my Understanding Test(UT1) is reaching.
And after the test ended, there goes my 1 semester. Fast isnt it?

but sad to say, the classmate that I've for 1 semester will be separated soon.

Just don't understand why Rp system have to change class for every semester. tsktsk.

it's like i wont be having any close friends in class. Even if i have, how long will that last?
Just 6 months. -.-

*Sigh!

Anyway, i have decided to go back to work in tcc but definitely not my previous branch as i feel like changing to another outlet, for god knows why. :/

maybe it will be a good start.

On the other hand, i might be holding 2 part time job in my upcoming days.

Dont ask me if im short of cash of what. I will definitely tell you that who will think money will enough. Right?

Coming up, i have so much activities to plan for and to buy.

my 21st ?

bangkok trip ?

What more? Money, of cause. Hopefully, i will be able to save as much money as possible.

that makes the reason why i will be having 2 part time jobs in future.

money will never be enough, always. :D

That's all for today.

Got to set my eyes to my hongkong dramas already.

Byeeeeeeee~

2011-05-13T00:45:00.000+08:00

Yay! my blog header is done.

Got to sleep now, Goodnight Earths. :D

2011-05-07T00:45:00.002+08:00

Yet another day.

Had a short meetup earlier on today with Goofy & Horny.

everything was great ! I had fun today. :D

Yoshinoya for dinner, and loiter around thinking where should be head to.

In the ended up at Play Nation @ Scape for 2hrs of games.

We played all sorts of the games , and i swear xbox 360 kinnect was super duper fun.

Omg! We were just anyhow dance and making a fool over there when we were playing.

And its really super fun. :D

Yes, next target I gonna buy xbox 360 Kinnect.

Gonna chiong myself on working already in order to get what i want.

And saving of cause for my upcoming 21st. :D

2nd day of work tomorrow, and i kinda miss tcc life already.

I dont know why. When I started working for the 1st day, how i wish im working in tcc at that moment.

But, all the trainers and friends have left and i see no point in returning back.

So drop the subject of returning. But i still kinda miss that place.

So fun!

And now, i have to start from scratch from knowing those staffs, menu, table numbers all these.

hais! I know it takes time for me to remember. Hwaiting!

Dont give up so easily, Meijun. I know you will be able to overcome all these.

Just be a little bit more patient. :D

It's turning 1am soon. I shall go sleep already, if not i will be super sleepy tomorrow.

what a long day for me. ):

and I miss playing swings seriously.

P/S: One step back.

2011-05-02T22:58:00.001+08:00

Dont promise if you intend to make an empty promises.

Ha! that's it.

FML seriously!

2011-05-01T04:49:00.002+08:00

OH HELLO !

Weather is rather hot now, I can feel the sweat in me already. feel like going to bathe, but it's getting late already. Gosh! I'm feeling so hot now.

Just finish 3 episodes of the show, "Only you". And have the urge of watching another 2 episodes to finish the whole story, but it's already 4.53am pleaseeee.

If i were to continue watching, i doubt i will wake up early tomorrow.

So yeah, quick update on my blog since it doesnt took me for hours. :D

Received the growth and share money, and my pay had in on friday. Double happiness!

Happy girl! Dont have to go around borrowing money already.

So within these 2days, I had spent total of $400 already.

Mainly on clearing my debts, and shopping of cause. And it had been so long since I went for shopping already. More to go before I start working. :D

Oh yes, I found a part time job already.

And I'm starting my first day of work on Thursday. Hopefully the peoples there will be nice.

Wish me all the best yeah?

Coming to third week of school already.

Kind of tired of the same routine everyday. It was like never ending.

Tired. I seriously dont like this kind of schooling environment.

But I still have to tolerate 3years for the sake of the Diploma Certificate.

How long can i really tolerate? It's just the start of the first term, and yet im feeling tired already.

What about 3years? Am I able to survive or will I give up half way?

*Sigh!

Anyways, its getting late already.

It's the start of May, please be nice to me.

Thankyou very much! (:

Goodnight Earthlings ~

2011-04-21T23:45:00.003+08:00

I miss those days.

School had started for 4days already.

Was really anti-social for the past 3 days and I dont really talk much with others.

And maybe that's the reason that i had score badly for my daily grade.

Yes, im cold to people and i cant adapt with them so fast.

until today, i finally speak up and chatted non-stop.

But still, i miss those day when im in ite. I miss those bits and pieces that I spent in ite.

Time wouldnt stop for me, i have to move on.

Finally gets my laptop done with configurations yesterday, working perfectly well still.

I know my laptop is getting old and it will up lorry anytime.

please be loyal to me for my 3years poly life. ):

I know my laptop is causing some problems recently.

and I feel like getting a new laptop.

Not very expensive but something affordable and nice.

But, I cant.

I'm jobless now, moreover getting a laptop? Ha! wishful thinking.

Presentation everyday in school without fails.

And I dont think its a problem for me as I had boost my confidence when im in my attachment.

But the main problem is, i couldnt really explained on it. but nevermind, i think i can able to overcome it.

with presentation in school, time seems to pass faster.

Poly life seem to be so cooooooool.

with added that i have to write Reflective journal before 11.59 everyday is getting bored for me.

And this have to last for 3 freaking years.

Gosh~ i dont know whether will i able to hold onto it anot. :/

Yes, long weekends i shall say. :D

And i start to love him more already. See you tomorrow, loves.

2011-04-18T01:13:00.002+08:00

School starting later on.

And i'm not in the mood for school.

I've not getting enough of holiday yet. I dont wish to go school.

Can I ? ):

2011-04-16T01:28:00.006+08:00

Back!

Helloooooo peeps , im back ~

finally, 2 weeks of working had come to an end. like finally.

2 weeks of standing which make my leg breaking soon, nevertheless with baby working together with me, everything will be alrights.

yeah i know, im sooooo sweet. :X

After this week and im starting my school already.

Time passes so fast , so fast. Or can i say i didnt have the intention to study poly in the first place?

Next week got to be my new experience for me.

New school , new environment, new faces, new travelling route, and NEW TRAVELLING FARES.

Oh yes, I will be using adult fares. And seriously i miss travelling with my ite student card with just $0.58. I simply dont have to think of how expensive the fares got to cost me.

But now, i got to control everything. ):

Seriously, adult fare is so expensive.

Tomorrow is Saturday, and it's baby's day.

2days 1 night jb trip,and here i come :D :D :D

And below are some overdue photos which take with my babeeees. :D

Jaybeeee and short birthday celebration over at Thailand restaurant.

*photos below are not in order.

2011-04-06T02:06:00.003+08:00

Hey Baby,

I want to be your favorite hello and hardest goodbye.

Forever. :D

2011-04-04T00:16:00.006+08:00

Failure.

1 month of being jobless, and yet im doing nothing in it.

why is it that getting myself a full time job can be so difficult.

Are my expectation of salary is really too high? Or i didnt have any aim in life now?

I was offered a job in several company, but i rejected them eventually.

Not that the salary is too low, but i just feels like those jobs isnt suitable for me.

I know, im judging at things without trying. why is this so?

just tell me why. And this always flash through my mind when im thinking ,"I will get a better salary outside more better than this".

Being having this thinking i know getting myself a full time job will not be easy.

And im already getting sick of going interview and writing the job application form again and again.

why do i even have to bother to go down for interview whereas at the end of the day i still rejected their offer? Or do i have so much time to waste on?

Seriously, i feels that im sucha failure in life.

Instead of going after what i want in life, i let things control my life. Failure isnt it ?

What do i actually wants in life now? can anyone tell me?

I feel like lazing around everyday and be the carefree girl that everyone use to know.

But can i? I need a job seriously now, not for the sake of enjoying. but for the sake of money.

why is it that in life, money is so important. ):

2011-04-02T04:56:00.001+08:00

it's 4.57am already, and im waiting for baby to knock off from work.
Hwaiting ~! :D :D :D

2011-04-02T00:11:00.006+08:00

HOPHOPHOP <3

Finallyfinallyfinally after 9years, we finally had a proper outing yesterday. :D
snooze off my alarm clock earlier on, and continue back to sleep till macus called.
yes, i know i overslept.
And thanks to him for calling, if not i wouldnt know what time i will be awake. :X

after which, bus down to meet baby and accompany him for paying bills.
i know im the cause of being late.
You know why? Because....
I overslept + prepare slow + lunch with daddy + meetup with baby late = Late for outing. :X

And we late about 1hr plus or so? :X

Caught hop over at Cineleisue and it was totally awesome to the max.
Karylan came after the movie, and we went over to 313 somerset.
Icing rooooooom next, to customize of birthday cakes for my beloved sister.

Karylan helped me decorating with the cakes. so nice of her.
thankyou so much! (:

Got to have more primary school outing soon. Yayness.

Back to today.
I accepted the sales and marketing job earlier on, and was called down for training today.
yes, unpaid training.
I wouldn't mind been unpaid for it as i think i will be able to learn something new.

And throughout the 3hrs and 30mins, i find that i dont really like the job.
i dont know why. i dont feel comfortable in it.
yet again, im giving up this job.

head over to Imm garden plaza with bestf for Stephanie Sun's autograph session.
its private event, and i didnt get to go in unless you're holding to the album of hers.
bestf went in and left me outside waiting.... aimlessly. ):

Nevertheless, ice cream yogurt make my day. :D

Oh yes, not forgetting that JPAE results is out today.
check through the result using my iphone, and i saw this.

We are pleased to inform you that you have been offered [3 Yrs] RP - Common Engineering Programme, R423 at Republic Polytechnic.

I didnt knew i'm still been offered a course whereas my 5 choices for poly is all business & design.
shouldnt i feel happy about it?
Polytechnic uh? isnt the school i've long for?

Nono! not at all. everything isnt what i wants.
I not gonna to go poly for sure. I know at the end of the day this isnt what i wants.
but.. people are telling me its a opportunity why not just study?

I know even if i study just for the sake of studying, overall im just wasting my time
getting a government diploma certificate which im not interested in.
Or maybe at the end of the day i gain a diploma certificate.

i know i know. peoples at this society dont tend to work related to what they have study.
they only based on the certificate , "Diploma in blablabblabla".
and they will get a job outside at a higher salary.

Hello girl, please wake up your idea and follow your heart.
I'm not getting any younger to even study another 3 more years.

but everything i do is always not being smooth.
whyyyyyyyyyyyy? ):
I feel im sucha failure now. *sigh!

And my lappy window is being corrupted.
now i cant even login to my window. Damnit!

Seee, told you.
everything is not smooth at all.
Even my lappy is down on 1st April.
April fool pranks or what -.-

*sigh!

2011-03-29T02:41:00.010+08:00

Back to track.

After finishing my attachment, i had been rotting myself off for nearly 3 weeks.
Yes, for the freaking 3 weeks.
And this 3 weeks i have been busying with job hunting.
I apply for job, i went for interview and i rejected their offer.
What a nice one indeed. ._.

Guess, i can hardly buy anything nice to pamper myself at this moment.
Gooooooooosh! my bank saving is drying up soon. ):
and now, im still jobless.
Totally jobless. I quitted both my part time jobs earlier on and now im totally broke to the max.
It had been so long since im really penniless.

Any kind soul can introduce me instant cash job at this moment? :X

Caught world invasion after my job interview today.
walk around cineleisue and xbox 360 caught my eyes.
next moment i thought was that i tell myself i will get it when i gotten my full time job.
the game really sooooooo damn cool leh.
And most importantly can help me to loss weight leh.
Buay Pai right ? But the only thing im afraid of is that i scare i will be 3-mins hot. :X
After getting sick of it, i might throw away one side.
which its like abit waste of money leh.
How ah? Should i buy anot? :X

6 hours of sleep left.
Since i've nothing to do at the moment, so agreed to helpout in setting up converse fair tomorrow.
Yes, Just tomorrow.
Addition that its accompany by my baby! *weeeeeeeeeeeee~

Shall continue on my job hunting now.
Ciaos~
Advance goodnights, Earthlings. :D :D :D

2011-03-24T00:59:00.002+08:00

Last goodbye.

hi mydeargrandma, this will be the last goodbye i shall say before sending you off from this cruel world tomorrow.
but, i still couldnt bring myself to the facts that you're gone.
I still hope that you will be alive, right standing infront of me smiling away.
doubt this will happen.
And i know i should accept this facts that you're gone.
I miss the every Sunday that we used to visit you.
I miss you seriously. And i wish upon seeing you in my dreams.

Now you're gone, im sure you will be watching over us.
I know you wouldnt want to see us crying tomorrow.

I will be strong, Really.
I will try to hold back my tears. I'll try.

And i know no matter how sour or heartbroken my heart is, the world wouldnt stop for my grief.
I will be strong and move on.
Because i know, you already live in my heart. <3>

Goodbye my dearest !

2011-03-20T13:27:00.002+08:00

Bidding goodbye forever. ))':

Dear grandma,

I hope you'll be doing fine up there.
Still remember when I'm young, you cook lunch for me and picking me up from my kindergarden school everyday without fail.

when I'm 4, you bought me a garfield softtoy when nobody wants to buy for me.
and making me bare footed walking under the hot sun to the market.

when I'm 5, i asked you to help me with my coloring book. ended up my book characters is all in black.

when I'm in primary school, when you forgotten to bring the keys out, you came all the way to my school looking for me in order to get the house key from me.

when my friends came over to our house, you pour them f&n cherry added water in it.

when you saw the white pigeon outside the window, you reach out your hand and grab it.

when you were left in old folk home, i remember when im cracking jokes with you and you will hit me real hard the next moment.

And the last time i still remember you passing 50$ note to me, asking me to buy Macdonalds.

Bits and tiny memories that you left will always in my heart.
You watched me grow, and i watched you go.
watching you entering the hell and back to the world for 2nd time.
And you leave the world for the 3rd time without returning back.

Poor you, leaving this world without a proper funeral.
And i hope your son and daughter will got their retribution.

dont look back.
Look for your 3 closest daughters in another world.
I'm sure they will take good care of you.
I really hope you'll be doing fine up there.

We will be alright soon. Really ! Dont worry about us.
We'll stay strong, and you'll always in our hearts.

P/S: You will missed by us. forever and always.
LOVEYOU, GRANDMA.

2011-03-19T03:31:00.002+08:00

I'm not going anywhere but here.

Finally my laundries are done!
Somehow , I'm really really really sleepy now.
And how amazing is that, my body alarm will automatically feel sleepy when its getting late.
even if i woke up late that day.

My phone is rather quiet today.
No chitchating tonight with baby tonight. ):
Okay i know, its still the starts of the relationship.
less than 8hrs and im see-ing you again. Hwaiting ~

Anyways, 2nd interview was done.
and the overall conclusion is that, i dont like telemarketing.
Thou, it works under sales but i think its long working hours.
Shall give it a miss then.

I know im being sucha lazy bum right now.
suddenly i feel like been a taitai , shaking my leg at home.
but i know it's impossible to be.
"hello, stop daydreaming will you? your money is drying up real soon."
But im feeeeling so lazy now.
How i wish stacks of money will drop right infront of me right now.
HA! wishful thinking. ):
P/S: Shall wait for "someone" to support me in future then. *hinthint

Alright It's getting late already , and i miss my bed right now.
Goodnights baby,
Goodnights Earthlings.

2011-03-16T01:26:00.005+08:00

HOPE

Went for 2 interviews today , which was shortlisted earlier on.
Was kinda nervous as this is my first interview for the full time job.
And its turns out well, Interview was fine overall.
Isnt that bad thou, at least i managed to go for the 2nd round interview which held on Thursday.
Great ! I think i'm one step closer to adult life already. :D

P/s: Thanks love for accompany me for the interview today.

Afterwhich , catch "My ex, haunted lover" with love over at Cineleisue.
wasnt very nice as the show didnt seem to be scary.
Seriously, i wont recommend people to catch this show as i think somehow this show is waste of money. :X

And without fails, yogurt ice creeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeam everyday.
Seriously, i think I'm going to stop craving for yogurt ice cream. ):
thou this is fat-free but its seem like im gaining extra pounds already.
Nice one! I think I'll be having hard time losing my weight.
GOODGAME!
HOW? HOW AM I GOING TO LOSE WEIGHT AND BACK TO MY ORIGINAL WEIGHT?
CAN ANYONE TEACH ME HOW? )):

MOOD DROP, DOESNT FEEL LIKE CONTINUING TO BLOG ANY FURTHER MORE.
SHALL POST AGAIN NEXT TIME.
SO BYE!

2011-03-12T10:10:00.000+08:00

2011-03-12T01:47:00.006+08:00

Hello F r e e d o m

Last day of work today. And i gain myself free reformatting and installing program to my lappy.
thanks to Macus, my lappy is running so much faster now.
of cause, one of the reason is that my lappy is still in default format.
DUHHHHH!
kinda unbearable to leave but still i shall declared, I'm officially graduated from ITE. ((:

And yessss, i got back my freedom today. and i know it will not gona last long.
Gonna enjoy my life as if there'll be no more tomorrow.
and this will most probably last for 1 week.
afterwhich , getting myself startoff with the boring lifestyle of being an adult.

Last day of work today. And being a nice meimei, waited yiyi to knock off from work.
ended up im got myself lost before meeting her.
what a nice experience -.-
and without love , i didnt able to know where i'm heading to.
P/S: Thanks so much for your rescue. ((:

And thanks for yiyi and yanyan for letting me know the truth.
thou, its abit too late.
but at least, i made the right choice now. (:
greatly appreciated!

P/S: Meeting love everyday is blissful.

2011-03-11T00:49:00.002+08:00

Your favourite hello.

Tomorrow will be my last day for my attachment, like finally.
a great sense of satisfaction i should say.
and right after tomorrow, i shall declare I'm officially graduated from ITE.

take a one week break and shall start my adult life afterwhich.
and i feeeeeeel like rotting myself at home for months. )):
like seriously ~
and freakkkkkkkkk, when will i be getting my salary?
Like i have never feel so broke for a long time. ):

and shall start my private school on July if i can jolly well save up some money.
hopefully i can. Awww~

P/S: Jz, Moreeeee yogurt ice creeammmmmm. :D :D :D

2011-03-07T22:06:00.002+08:00

HWAITING~!!

4 more days for my attachments to end.
YES LAH~ IM AWAITING ! :D :D

went down for presentation today.
And came back with disappointment when my boss told me that he will deduct my salary because i took half day leave to school.
I was like wtf ?
asked to be in school for presentation by class advisor and yet deduct my salary ?

firstly, i took medical leave. And because im absent from work , my salary will be deducted?
no matter am i having mc or not, the salary will be deducted.
and now, i was asked by you to come school for presentation. And yet again , my salary will be deducted?

Seriously can anyone tell me wtf is this?
my attachment salary is like only freaking $450 , and yet i've to deduct and deduct ?
totally unfair !

No matter am i having mc or what , the salary will be deducted.
why on hell , i've to bother to even visit the clinic whereas the mc is not valid ?
seriously, fml to the max.

4days more, i have to toletate till the very last day.
thanks goodness, its finally the last week for the attachment.

HWAITING~

P/S : Yogurt ice cream ftw~
I gonna look for you tomorrow. :D

2011-03-04T01:27:00.003+08:00

This gona be my second post of the day.

Wrote quite alot earlier on for this post but after thinking twice i deleted all .
I think human beings are somehow quite complicated.
In fact, I always think human beings are the one creating those complicated stuffs.
But why do they have to do so ?
Seriously, i see no point what will they gain at the end of the day.

Anyways, one sentence to describe.
"Cool story bro ! "

And yes, i believe in my own eyes. :D

2011-03-04T00:53:00.005+08:00

Back to track.

Oh yeah , i know it had been so long since i last updated.
partly is because im been super tired nowadays.
and you know, im having attachment now.

Tired => not enough sleep => lazy = no updates.
okay, i know its my lousiest excuses. :X

And yeah, so here I am.
I'm super duper looking forward for my 7days more attachment.
and then i can declared freedom ~

You know when everyone is having holiday after this week
and yet , you're still struggling and holding on with your attachment stuffs.
It's like your friends busy enjoying and i'm busy working.
thats boring life of mine. ~

Never fails, my life is always that boring. (Y)
meanwhile, i've to keep on looking out for both part time and full time job.
if not after attachment i'll be rotting at home all day long. :X

Oh yes, i met up with my twiny few days back.
Nothing much that we did on that day. Basically was just slacking around at Nex.
P/s: I've so much so much story to say. lets meet up soon . :D

As for today , i've finally meet up with my lovely michelle.
and it took us 9 freaking years to meet up together.
and i think if its not for buying presents, i doubt we'll be meeting up.
Seriously , what's wrong with us? LOL ~

And seriously we should meet up often , you know?
i know after today you will fall for me. HAHAHAH!
Shall see you soon, girl .
P/s: dont forget to wrap the present before meeting me.

It's getting late already.
Got to catch up with my bed real soon.
Goodnights earthlings.

2011-02-20T23:36:00.002+08:00

Give up !

Rejected the offer of working in my attachment place.
Thought of continuing the marketing job at first , tried understanding the software and stuffs.
but due to some reason, i rejected.
tried to understand so much yet everything gone down to drain , once again.
what the hell ~
and also it's like, eddie spend so much effort and time teaching, guiding me yet , the answer is No.
everything is just beyond my control.
overall , the real reason that im not continue left unsaid.
):
Turning jobless soon after my attachment.
what a waste ! *sigh !
Awww~ there goes my high pay .

P/S: 3weeks of attachment left.

2011-02-17T22:14:00.003+08:00

DAY 5; MY DREAMS

To me dreams doesnt matter to me at all .
All along, my heart will always tell me that i'll always see the path when im reaching at any point of time.
my thinking was never change. never once.
till now, when im growing older. and my mindset starts to change.

all i know i shouldnt rely on guys.
be independent and be a super woman.

that will be my dream for now.

2011-02-17T21:09:00.007+08:00

I need time.

was really tired.
my sister was not feeling well last night, rush down to khoo teck puat hospital for checkup.
waiting time at there was s-u-p-e-r long.
ended up reaching home at 4 plus in the morning.

thought of not going work today.
but since i need to go over customer's place, i reported to work late.
waiting for taxi in the morning totally sucks to the max.
no cabby willing to pick me up. ):
what a bad day to start with.

Life in attachment had pass for 6weeks.
time flies~
was offer a job to work after attachment, somehow it took me a long time to consider.
yes, opportunity may be only once.
but deep down bottom of my heart , im thinking for the future.
will i able to achieve the things i wants after all the hardship ?
will i able to cope and handle the stress?
will i really be successful in what im doing?

thou, I might be eager to own a car.
But who dont?
Because I'm not born rich , thus people tends to look down on us.
the feeling totally sucks when people tends to talk behind your back , yet you need to pretend you have never heard it.
And everything is just a matter of time in order to prove it.

So throughout all these days, i've seen what i shouldnt.
thanks for showing me your true colors.
I've learnt the lesson.
Yet again, i screwed my life. (Y)
i know at this point of time, i should focus on my job scoop instead of thinking of all these shit.
Maybe, i should move on.

P/S:
if only you were never stepped into my life.
if only time could rewind, and not memories that had left.
So tell me, was that fate ?

$1 for 1

Great experience spent with bestf yesterday :D

2011-02-15T00:16:00.006+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY !

Being Single this time round! perhaps, i should stay at home today.
I've seen couples holding hands, carrying bouquet of roses or even balloon that can fly is almost everywhere.
And i feel kinda jealous for godknowswhy. ><

Alamak! today just isnt the day for single.
but seriously, i think singlehood simply so coooool.

P/S: I'm sure some things are worth the wait. (:

2011-02-14T00:19:00.002+08:00

DAY 4 ; MY SIBLING

To my beloved sister,

The day that you got married, i know the days you stay at home will be shorter.
Soon after, you got to live with your husband and not with us. ):
Thou, everything starts to change in future.
we will be drifted, but I know you'll always be there for me.
and i know, you will be my best sister. :D

Xoxo,
Val.

2011-02-13T01:47:00.003+08:00

Fruitful day !

Feeling totally shag to the max. Didnt have enough sleep last night.
drag myself out from bed, no choice.
Work is alright, nothing to do as it's saturday today ! :D

Sis-in-law house for steamboat + Blackjack.
Didnt notice the time, and miss the autograph session for linjunjie. ):
Fated that i've to go to derrick hoh's autograph session, as earlier on we couldnt really make up my mind.
i feel like buying JJlin concert ticket, but i think its like not worth.
So should i buy?
Grrrrr~ so tempting!

Cheeeeeer for Derrick Hoh ! ~ :D :D :D :D

Just a short update here, as im sleeping now.
More to go .
Goodnight, Earthlings

P/S: I've tried ! ):

2011-02-12T02:04:00.002+08:00

I'm so freaking tired.
Somehow, i wish i had a long sleep now. ):

till now at this wee hours, im still staying up waiting for zaihao's to be done with the software.
My eyes is closing soon.
So tell me, should i sleep? ):

2011-02-06T02:37:00.002+08:00

2011-02-06T00:40:00.002+08:00

DAY 3; MY PARENTS

Hello daddy & mummy. thanks so much for bringing me into this world.
Although we wasnt rich , but i found warmth in this family which money is unable to afford it.
I'm fortunate enough to be here, where you given me the best that you can.

Till now, i found out that we hardly took family photos.
but everything is too late now.

thanks for the 21 years of memories you had given me.
the memories of yours will always live in my heart.

Your truely. <3

2011-02-05T00:09:00.004+08:00

兔年快乐!

it's the 2nd day of the chinese new year.
and it's the only time i can collect angbao. Shouldnt i feel happy ?
But no, i dont feel the sense of happiness.
Maybe, i feel like im becoming older. And everything tends to change now.
It's isnt like before already.
The relative's house that we visited isnt that crowded and noisy like before.

Alrights , im not here to spoil the mood. Go straight to the point.

So this year without fail, gambling is all we can kill our time.
And that's the way to earn extra income, if we win the game uh.
whether its winning or losing , i dont think it really matters that much.
Afterall it's just a game. we only get to play it once a year. (:

And how cool . I've got a long weekend to rest.
4days of rest and will get back to work on Monday again.
after this public holiday, i wont be seeing P.H in the calendar before my attachment ends.
Work, work, and still work.
And that's the only time where I can put down everything aside and concentrate working.
Perhaps, i like the life i'm having now.
no troubles, no worries.

On the other hands, it's isnt the bad idea for me thou.
Concentrating on my work , and start planning for my further studies.
I believe by working hard, everything will paid off.
Yes, i want to be independent. without relying on others.
though i didnt get any allowance from my dad, but still i need to be even more independent.
One step at a time, i know i will reach my aim one day. (:

Got to hit my bed now.
Shag to the max ~

Goodnights, peeps. ((:

P/S: May all have a prosperous new year in rabbit year.

2011-02-04T23:33:00.004+08:00

DAY 2; MY CRUSH.

Seriously i dont believe in crush.
I find it that crush will bring me to no where overall.

So yes, crush.
but still , love is blind.
we cant predict what will happen next.

So meantime, i wont think of having relationship.
Obviously crush wont happen in my life now. (:

2011-02-04T01:23:00.003+08:00

DAY 1 ; BESTFRIEND.

Yes, it's you.
I believe in fate. And it's the fate that bring us knowing each other.
thou, we only know each other for 3 years plus.
but the memories that we share is much more of it.

You.
watched me fall , consoling me when im really down.
accompany me when im alone.
been my listening ear, giving me advises when im troubled.
put your friend aeroplane just to accompany me.
make me happy when im sad.
always there for me when i needed you.

though , we both were in different school now and that we wont get to meet up that often.
but still, our friendship is still so close.
thanks for stepping into my life, leaving a footprint and never leave. (:
And you will be my bestf , always. <3

2011-02-01T00:20:00.004+08:00

Words are cheap !

It's the 4th week of attachment without knowingly.
Somehow, i find it that time past faster now as compared to last time.
maybe is the workloads that im doing make the time pass faster.
Yes, I'm doing pretty fine right now with my attachment.

Till now, finally i can settle down and do some short update.
work make me shag , and that's the reason im not updating recently.
Not because im lazy , but im really physically tired.

Alot of things went through my mind nowadays.
had been thinking , is this path im walking is right for me?
Will i able to achieve what i wanted along ?
I know words are cheap to say and decide everything right now.
Like again , its a matter of time.
first full time job soon , am i ready for it?

Anyways, Chinese new year is just 2 days away.
doesnt feel the urge of buying new clothes compare to last few years.
everything had change, and move on .
It's just isnt the right atmosphere. Maybe im still not yet prepare of celebrating cny. ):
awwww.

It's raining again.
And im freezing now. hitting my bed in few minutes time.

Goodnights Earthlings. :D

2011-01-25T19:54:00.000+08:00

Was blog-hopping and i think this is pretty cooooooool .
I'M GOING TO WRITE A LETTER TO ALL THE ONE MENTIONS BELOW.

Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

2011-01-22T23:40:00.002+08:00

dont say , but prove it.

2weeks down of attachment. Day by day , it seem to be the same routine.
everything seem to be so tired.
More and more workloads coming up, its gonna be a tiring month.
So far , i've not yet immune with the time.
I'm feeling so god damn tired, and i dont seem to have enough sleep .

And i start to hate working in office.
For the whole of 2weeks, im staying in the office from 8.30-5.30pm .
no matter is my lunch or working, im always in office, seated down.

and my friends around me was saying that i had gain weight. ):
Gosh~ i need to lose weight already.
But how? most of the time im seated down. *sigh !

P/S: 7weeks of attachment left . ):

Anyway, after 2months of attachment . I'll most probably predict where will i be landing.
Yes, i know. we cant predict our future.
But to play safe, i already created 2paths for myself to undergo.
I wouldnt let my youth gone down to drain anymore.

I have a aim now, and i'll go for it.
Everything is a matter of time now. And i can do is to let the time proves everything.
All the best , meijun. <3

Anyways, HAPPY 21st BROTHER !
Enjoy yourself over there. :D

I'm deadbeat already. So lazy to upload the pictures that i took just now.
Maybe, i'll upload tomorrow.
Yes, its just MAYBE only. Shall see my mood.

Goodnights Earthlings, I'll be K.O-ing in less than 20mins time.
*Yawn~

2011-01-19T23:24:00.003+08:00

sleepless night.

I'm feeling super duper tired now but, i cant sleep at this moment.
guess, i should burn midnight oil to complete my work before i can turn in.
Fuck! i seriously hate last minute work.
and because of been so lazy in the first place, in the end i'm the one who suffer.
nice one! maybe this will teaches me some lesson.
But no , i cant find feel to even design.
Squeezing my brain juices cant help either now. All im thinking is i need my bed now.
And i can sense that my bed is calling me to sleep.
)):

Eyes is closing soon .
which i dont know why. I thought by updating my blog will make me awake somehow.
But NO ! I'm wrong. It ends up been even more sleepy !
AHHHHH~
I need to buckup now to finish all the design on hands if i want to sleep.

I'm going back to my stuffs now.
Gambateh ! ((:

2011-01-19T00:00:00.004+08:00

the reason was you all along.

catch the show, "Just Call Me Nobody" with ahbee at iluma.
小小彬 is so damn cute in that show, but his face only last for less than 5mins. ):
and yeah before meeting ahbee, i find it super weird to even like go out with him .
Cause i think we wasnt that close enough, thou we were working under the same roof.
Overall , it turns out well.
Wasnt that bad as what i thought.
Hurray !
Ohyes seriously, this show is quite nice. You peoples should catch it someday. (:

Piles of works need to be submitted by this week .
goodgame for me.
doesnt feel like doing, but still i need to no matter what :X

Alright, like i promise i will visit library tomorrow.
I still remember that. :D

Anyway, today is not my day again .
Dammit ! ):

2011-01-18T00:14:00.004+08:00

Not the right time.

For the first time i'm not feeling tired nor sleepy at work.
work today was alright, thou its like everyday is the same routine.
And i hate sitting down the whole day without walking around, my stomach just couldnt have room for better digestion.
Goshhh ! i should try to use to it someday.

was given some assignments to be completed.
but couldnt find any feel to design, again. ):
shall find some time to the library for some research, maybe it will helps.

But , all i need was time.
Alright, maybe i should go over to the library on wednesday.
Wednesday , i promise ! (:

Movie with Twiny Pj today.
And she bake me some cookies, added with some love note. *Blush !

Seriously i didnt realise we only know each other for 2 months.
Thou the time we knew each other was short, but i feel that we are friends for years.
it's not the matter of time overall.
I believe we'll able to be friends for years, and still counting on. yeah Pj ?

P/S: I want to have more and more outingsssssssss with you. ♥

Awwww~ It's getting late already.
Guess I should hit my bed now, if not i will turn into a zombie tomorrow.

Goodnights, Earthlings. (:

2011-01-16T19:54:00.002+08:00

Beyond control.

我说过，让时间说真话。
可是，我却看不到时间对我说的真话。
难道想根加了解是那么困难的事吗?

这就是我的命运吗 ?
我认输了 !

Nooo, i'm not trying to be a emo kid here again.
I'm trying to forget everything and do my part in my life.
Hello, stop thinking will you?

Had a nightmare last night, which wake me up middle of the night.
pretty tired!
2nd week of work tomorrow. doesnt feel like going to already.
my energy to work is like being dried up. ):

maybe i should really stop counting down.

P/S:
Helloo, my lovely lappy.
Please be nice to me, i can sense that you're leaving me soon .

2011-01-15T22:41:00.007+08:00

One word , tired !

1 week down of attachment. 8 weeks more to endure.
And during these 1 week, i had a feeling of never-enough-sleep.
feel so much older now :/

And i did something really stupid yesterday.
never thought of what if im caught in the act, but just couldnt stop my mind from thinking.
harsh decision i made, which i think it might ruin my reputation badly.
i know, what done already done. No use bringing it up again.
Gosh! what a good way to start my attachment.

P/s: Oh yes! thanks so much for trusting me, kw. ((:

kinda not use for waking up early in the morning for work on saturday.
6 days of waking up in the morning in total. One word , "shag" and to the max.

Why is it that i have to even work on saturday ?
why is ids group open on saturday?
why, why, why ?

Okay shut up , Meijun! You got to live with it.
it's just the freaking 9weeks.

And during these 9weeks of work , i'll gonna gain weight for sure. ):

Didnt had dinner just now, exchange my sleeping with my dinner.
and , I feeling super hungry now. ):

Got to start off with my designing now.
Gambateh !

P/s: i miss school life seriously. )):

2011-01-13T22:51:00.002+08:00

喜欢一个人不一定要和他在一起。
看着他开心，自己依然就开心了。 (:

2011-01-11T22:36:00.004+08:00

Windy.

Just got back from jogging not long.
Jog alone for 1hour plus or so, feeling great. I've finally overcome myself from jogging alone.
*claps. Nothing to be proud of, i dont know why suddenly i've the motivation to myself.
but neverthelss, hopefully this motivation of mine will last.

Anyway,
it's the 2nd day of work today.
as usual i leave my house 1hr 30mins for work , try out the new route to my company
ended up i'm late.
Yes, it just the 2nd day of work. i know its not very nice thou.

Shall try out another new route tomorrow, hopefully i wont be late again uh .
if not goodgame for my this module. :X

anyway, i dont think i've confident of going polytehnic now.
i know the more hope i carry , the greater disappointment.

P/S: i miss the song that you sing to me. ):

2011-01-10T21:40:00.002+08:00

No matter what , life still goes on

ALOHA! I'm back home.
find it so strange and weird for being at home so early.
Anyways, first day of work today, isnt as bad from what i've thought .
maybe is the training that i've gone undergo before I start work .
that's the reason i wont feel so bad.

No matter how unwilling i dont wish to drag myself out from bed, I still have to .
for the sake of my 2months attachment.

First day of work , and now im awaiting for 11march.
how great is it.
Time will pass in a blink , without noticing. :D

So yeah , i suddenly have the urge to start jogging when attachment starts.
suppose i was looking forward for jogging today , but the heavy pour ruin my plan .
nevermind, there should be plenty of time for me. :D

had my hairs cut just now.
turns out to be i almost asleep when the hairstylist is cutting.
Okay , thats really explain how tired i'm .

Turning in soon .
surprising , i would wanted to sleep now.
nice weather. my bolster must be smelling nice now.
AHHAHHAHAHAHAH!

Goodnights, earthlings~

2011-01-09T14:08:00.002+08:00

Because life is not a straight line

I dont know why am i keep on updating my blog recently.
Something might be wrong with me, i think .
Maybe its just a 3-minutes hot.

Bear with me, i hope my blog will never be so dead like what its happened in the past.

So , my attachment will be starting tomorrow.
hopefully i can able to manage it.
2 months of attachment , i believe by practicing everything will goes smooth .

Jiayou, Meijun !
You'll be able to do it, 没什么难道你的.

And yes, im counting down for the sundown marathon that held on the may .
never thought i will even participate in it as i doubt friends will accompany me.
unexpectedly i found my cousin, she share the mindset as me.
Great mind thinks alike. :D
Shall look forward for this event . Whoooohooo ~
GREAT !

Ohohohoh dear !

It's 2.29 already . I should hurry up get myself prepare if not i got to be late meeting up my tcc's friends.
Concert later , hopefully wont bored me down .

So yeah , bye ~
Keep in touch, i 'll be back

P/S : Bad hairs day ! ):

2011-01-09T01:10:00.003+08:00

You keep me hanging

In life, i realise by working hard to achieve what you want is hard. And by making it goes on your way is even harder.
And i know by saying, it means nothing, because words are cheap.

Yes, i thought it through. Why do i have to make my life so freaking miserable when the facts is already there
why cant i just face it and move on ?

falling into insomnia, with hundreds of thoughts running through my mind
is really terrible.

I know, its time to put everything aside.
I'm tired of guessing, really. I think it will be best to stay this way.

Anyways, Jb shopping was awesome today .
i manage to shop , but not till i drop. More shopping sprees to go .

right now, i still thinking should i make myself busy working throughout this 2 months ?
should i or should i not took up a part time job to work after 7pm ?
And i know if i were to work after 7pm , i will be super duper tired to the max.
what do you think ?

Lastly, ending post with peijun and me. Overdue photo that we took on friday .
and yes, i miss the way we hang out together.
Shall look forward for the next outing yo ! :D

2011-01-07T23:50:00.003+08:00

What's up with my life?

OHHHH DAMN SHYT ! What's up with my life now.
deep down to the bottom of my heart, i have words that cant be explained.
I have feeling that left unsaid.
Seriously, i feel that my life is so screwed up.
I shouldnt have let you step into my life and mess with it.
My fault ! )):

2011 , should be a new start of the year .
But why am i still dragging all the shitty emo self of me to the 2011 ?
And i know i have to find a way out for myself, nobody help me but only myself.

Or maybe i should really put my mind off from thinking.
It's just the starts of the year , i hope everything will be smooth sailing ahead.
be it in attachment , relationship , or what so ever. I hope i can really set my mind off from thinking.

Do my part and overcome all the obstacles that is obstructing my life.

And sadly, my attachment work starts next week .
hoefully, i will able to work things well .
2months of endurance.

I shall see how much will my endurance be.

So i've wrote down some Resolutions for 2011.

* To find my back true self.

* Able to loss to my ideal weight

* earn and save up lots of lots of money

* memoriable 21th birthday

* Be happy always

* smooth sailing for whatever i do

* move on with my life

and many many more.
will update if i've think of any .

But seriously right now, i feel so regretted.
regretted on the decision i've made.
If only, time will rewind back .

I hope everything will remain the same like before.

2011-01-02T16:58:00.003+08:00

Everything is coming to an end.

And yes, 1st january 2011 was my last day in tcc IB.
for the past 2 months was now left with memories.

I start to love the peoples over there but not the daily boring working days. :X
nevertheless, i have learn alot over at there.
like the perspective view and the clearer part of the society.
words that cannot explain how i feel , but most important the awesome peoples i know.

P/S: keep in contact , peoples. :D :D :D

Or should i say , i had offically quit my both jobs.
Converse and tcc make me step out to see the world clearer.

Sad to say , everything had ended now.
Attachment will start 1 week later. Gosh~

Everything pass in a blink .
I feel like im getting older now. ):

Anyways, Happy 2011 . thou , im abit late . :X
new year , new experience.
please be kind to me. :D

i going off for dinner. so bye !

2010-12-25T16:04:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EARTHLINGS~
lonely , lonely christmas for me this year .

2010-12-24T12:45:00.002+08:00

Back to scratch

im trying out on the liese bubbe hair color now,

so meanwhile i'll get my blog updated rather than been so deadly.

time really flies, and everything is back to square.

And yes, i'm single again. thou, the ending is not i wanted it to be . ):
Although we still love each other, but i chose to give up.

all this while, i learnt that i would rather find someone who knows how to cherish me
instead of cherish me when it comes to a point of losing.
My thinking have grew up quite alot throughout this relationship.
and i know, no matter what i still got to move on .
time wouldnt wait for me.

everything is back to square now, and my freedom had regain back again.
thoughout these few days, i really appreciate my friends that gone through with me when im really down .
I think im alright now, maybe or maybe not.
whatever it is, i believe time will heal . (:

"A cheerful heart is a good medicine to overcome obstacles. ((: "

Hopefully, this sentence will motivate me.

2010-12-17T15:21:00.004+08:00

让时间说真话!

today is the last day of school life for me.
shouldnt i feel happy? i doubt so. i kinda think that i will miss school life sooner or later.
Gosh~

I'm troubled now!
i hope this truth will never wake me up. ):
I becoming more and more emo now. HOW?!
everything is just a matter of time. *sigh !

2010-12-03T00:49:00.004+08:00

1 week off is isnt enough for me. ):

School is getting more and more bored already .
everything is left with projects , projects and projects before holiday is coming.
got to stress myself with all these piles of projects. hurray ! -.-

nevertheless, shopping is all i can filled my life with .
yes, more shopping with silly tomorrow ! *loves
woooot ~like so finallyyyyy ! :D

what's next ?
CAMERA ! camera is always the toy i wanted to have.
Yes, and my future sister in-law is sponsoring me part of it. YAYNESS!

So right now, I still wondering which should i get .

D5000 ? or . . .

Olympus EP2

Seriously, i think olympus ep2 will suits me much better.
whereas, nikon slr seem kinda bulky if i were to carry it around. ):

WAH ! HOW? i cant make up my mind now.
And i heard from ben that , olympus image quality isnt as good as nikon.

OH SHIT !
Im stuckkkkk. Can i get both ?
So that i can stop thinking? :X

*P/S : I can see holiday coming to me in few weeks time.
JB soon , i hope ? (:

2010-12-02T01:10:00.002+08:00

Hello Earthlings !

Seriously life changes alot.
alot more than unexpected!

Heartbreaking news that my aunty had passed away .
time passes in a blink .
seriously, everything seem like it had just happened yesterday .
that we used to joke around.
But now, you're gone.
No longer with us . ))':
Everything was left with memories now.

Hopefully, you can be able to look for my mom in another world.
And i know you guys will be up there looking after us.

Heartbreaking, issnt it ?
But , life still got to move on no matter what .

So , anyway its coming to the end of 2010.
And i felt that , it becoming bored and bored each year .
nothing to happy about, atmosphere is not there.

few weeks more for attachment . should i be happy ?
i doubt so.
*Sigh !

Got to off to bed now.
Goodnights, earths !